The End is in Sight

The problem with a 70+ page paper is that it is very difficult to step back and see the big picture. I keep having to change one section, which then means all the other sections no longer quite fit, and so I have to change them and then the ones I changed originally no longer quite fit, and it just makes me tired to think about this.

I was a little antisocial this weekend, not because I was staying up to all hours of the night on Friday and Saturday working on my thesis (have I ever done that?) but because I was just so tired of thinking that I couldn't imagine going out and socializing with large groups of people. So instead I just went to the Orem library with my roommate and rented a couple of old movies (with her help, I am trying to catch up on all the classic movies I should have seen but haven't) and then invited one of the few guys in my life who is both likeable enough and non-threatening enough that I can call him on the phone to invite him to a movie night without sending my stress levels skyrocketing. (I hate telephones as it is - talking to boys on telephones is even worse.) I thought that would fulfill my social obligation for the weekend, and it was a nice relaxing evening, but I feel just a twinge of guilt that I avoided anything but the easiest social contact.

Anyway, it's all going to be over soon. Supposedly it will be over at the end of this week because I have already scheduled my defense for the 27th and I have no choice but to get my thesis to my committee at least a week ahead of time. Of course, that's not technically the end of it because I'll have to prepare a presentation, and I'm almost sure to pass with qualifications, meaning I won't be completely through (oh please let there not be too many qualifications!). But just giving it to my committee will be a huge accomplishment and will free up an awful lot of time.

I have been waiting for this for so long, and like it or not, it is here.